a lot has happened

where to start?

I'll keep it brief...

1. Went to London to take part in a male burlesque competition - came second :) In for the next round. It took place in Bethnal Green Working Men's Club, which was so surreal it was fantastic. It's still WMC but also a Burlesque club (different floors). Kind of gives you hope...

2. Went to Manchester on a private bus for more burlesque stuff. Slept with a fifty-one year old. oops. heh heh heh.

3. Slept with a long-time friend. We slept together the first time we met, years ago, and then again recently. Why? It's hard to resist... she's great fun and I am very fond of her. When it was time to tell her she wasn't the one she was not angry (because I never said she would be) and we are now closer than ever. Thank you merciful god, I'd hate to loose her. On the other hand I fear that she's playing a long game... I really don't want to hurt her again. (It was a mutual thing that we slept together BTW)

4. Another reason to be grateful for an apparently happy ending to 3. is I met the french woman again. She makes me weak. especially the way she pronounces my name. She is beautiful and lonely and cuts through every filter I have. I told her about the George Bush cabaret and I think she was impressed (or at least intreaged). I promised her I'd email the details, and she got back!! woo woo! Unlike last time. It's her birthday on thursday and I'm going on the night out. I'd love to get to know her better, and a busy birthday night might not be the best but it's a start. I'm really curious about what she's really like. Could I keep up with her or will I fall by the wayside. My secret tactic is not to try and impress her with my artiness but annoy her with wierdness whilst luring her with the promise of wisdom and understanding. Right... Still, good news is not to be sniffed at. Roll on thursday.

Found out something about possible jobs with the forestry commission - a tangent I know but I'm not earning from webshites for ever (boring and unfulfilling). Some of the jobs require a shotgun license to even get an interview. cool. And environmentally noble of course

That's it for now.

Period of depression over

Hooray - I have finished my birthday weed and life can continue again :)
Just off to stab a friend....

Birthday

Since last post have been to a party that wasn't for me and one that (sort of) was. A Japanese Friend (Yu) had an international party in the primary school where they all live. When you go in the door the first thing you see are two neeat rows of bright red bags and tiny bright red wellingtons. It was very polite and with (international) food. Got very messy later on. In the middle Yu played a japanese string instrument.

Saturday - Birthday bash :) Drinkies out at a live music thing my friends put on in the back room of a theatre bar then onto a club. Got bought a night out at Mr Scruff by someone - nice! Mary showed up for a bit but went early :( Still - life goes on. Feeling pretty good about being 32. Older than Jesus....

Just been to the theatre!

Wow that's twice in only twelve years of living here :) My friend works as an audio describer for the blind, so he gets free tickets for shows. When his girlfriend is away, I get them (oh lucky me!). We went to saw a third-rate play about people from this city, acted and written by people from this city. It was described as a 'comedy drama' which seems to mean that the first half had a few jokes in it and the second half was all about shouting and screamed recriminations. I hate winging people from this city. Still, it wasn't actually that bad and we had a laugh, plus the play had a happy ending and got the bus and we had Bacardi Gold afterwards and it was good.

And that is what I did tonight.

Work Related

Went for an interview with the charity collection people today. Going to give it a try, and if it works out ok I'll ditch the web job! :) bye bye office...

The Science of Sleep

Just been to see the Science of Sleep by Michel Gondry. That is a man that knows about love and heartbreak. It's a great film, full of whimsy and romance and with a dark undercurrent as well as a few good jokes and lots of very clever visual stuff. Not much to complain about. I am really glad that I didn't go to see it on my own, it's one of those films you have to be able to talk about afterwards otherwise you feel suicidally lonely. I was supposed to go and see it with a girl last week (Mary) and again this week but she chickened out and I went with a friend. It's a terrible shame that I didn't get to see it with Mary, because I know that she would be the perfect person to see it with, I am sure her head works in the same way. It's one of those films where you can turn to the person afterwards and say, see? I'm not that bad, and that film explains a lot about ME. Just like all songs are about me. Still, hopefully I will see her on my birthday at the weekend. My friends are putting on a live music night that night so the scene is all set. Hope she shows...

New Year?

I did this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CjOHne17uaU

Ha

Incidentally

Merry Christmas, Happy Hanuka, Kung Hei Fa Choi and all that. It's my birthday in six days. Thirty-two, going a bit bald, no girlfriend, no kids, a career I don't want. My inner child is learning to swear. At me. Shit.

not dead though.

Back to basics

Let's get it over with. My name is *** **** and I live in ********* in the UK.

At the moment I make websites part-time, I am sick of making websites.
I'm looking for something else to do, there's a job lead for being a professional charity pest that I might take a gamble on, slightly unsocial hours and not a fortune, but! no office, no 9.00 am start.... It would be a short term fix and I think I might do it (for now). I am supposed to be looking for re-training of some some sort. I would like to be a) a comedy writer or b) a forest manager. Not very compatible but who said it had to be?

I have just moved house, and it's taken forever to get the internet back. During my last posts I was seeing someone called Tess, who is very wonderful, but sadly we're just mates now. On the good side, we really are mates so she hasn't gone away...

My mum was recently diagnosed with breast cancer, but it's all going about as well as it can - she's had a mastectomy and is waiting tests to confirm everything is now ok. I feel sure it will be, I went up and saw her at the weekend, and she looks very well. More when the results come in. It's hard to know how to feel, I haven't been as upset as I feel I should have been, but it's all been so fast and she already seems over it. She's holding up ok, and because she saw me through Leukemia when I was 14 we at least have that in common... (another story, the big L)

That's it for now. If you are real, read my other blog at http://iloveyouhard.blogspot.com

oh yeah, I have a cat. big wup.

hello lurkers

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Probably, I imagine this is private - so if I'm wrong let me know...